JAMIE
Okay, stop
Cathy, stop
Listen to me

There are people
And they are publishing my book
And there's a party that they're throwing
And while you've made it very clear that you're not going
I will be going
And that's done

But what's it really about?
Is it really about a party, Cathy?
Can we please for a minute stop blaming
And say what you feel?
Is it just that you're disappointed
To be touring again for the summer?
Did you think this would all be much easier
Than it's turned out to be?
Well, then talk to me, Cathy
Talk to me

If I didn't believe in you
We'd never have gotten this far
If I didn't believe in you
And all of the ten thousand women you are
If I didn't think you could do
Anything you ever wanted to
If I wasn't certain that you'd come through somehow
THe fact of the matter is, Cathy
I wouldn't be standing here now

If I didn't believe in you
We wouldn't be having this fight
If I didn't believe in you
I'd walk out the door and say,
"Cathy, you're right"
But I never could let that go
Knowing the things about you I know
Things, when I met you four years ago, I knew
It never took much convincing
To make me believe in you

Don't we get to be happy, Cathy?
At some point down the line

Don't we get to relax?
Without some new tsuris
To push me yet further from you?
If I'm cheering on your side, Cathy
Why can't you support mine?
Why do I have to feel
I've committed some felony
Doing what I always swore I would do?

I don't want you to hurt
I don't want you to sink
But you know what I think?
I think you'll be fine!
Just hang on and you'll see-
But don't make me wait till you do
To be happy with you
Will you listen to me?
No one can give you courage
No one can thicken your skin
I will not fail so you can be comfortable, Cathy
I will not lose because you can't win

If I didn't believe in your
Then here's where the travelogue ends
If I didn't believe in you
I couldn't have stood before all of our friends
And said, "This is the life I choose-
This is the thing I can't bear to lose
Trip us or trap us, but we refuse to fall"
That's what I thought we agreed on, Cathy
If I hadn't believed in you
I wouldn't have loved you at all

....Sigh...I can't even describe what that song does to me

Jason Robert Brown is a GENUIS

Currently Playing The Last 5 Years (2002 Off-Broadway Cast) By Jason Robert Brown, Norbert Leo Butz, Sherie Rene Scott see related

Im updating after like over a month. Yey me. Things have been rough here. Everyone is leaving including me and there are certain people that I really don't want to say goodbye to but it's out of my hands. I must move on. I got the soundtrack to the musical The Last 5 Years. It's amazing. Ive never had a score touch me like that. Every single song is amazing and I want to cry everytime I listen to it. PLus the story is amazing as well. If you haven't listened to it, you should. Everyone I know should. It's just incredible. Here's one of my favorite songs....its sad b/c its about him cheating on his wife who he's about to break it off with but still its such an amazing song. Download it if u can.

Nobody Needs to Know
JAMIE
Hey, kid - good morning
You look like an angel
I don't remember when we fell asleep
We should get up, kid
Cathy is waiting...

Look at us, lying here
Dreaming, pretending
I made a promise and I took a vow
I wrote a story
And we changed the ending
Cathy, just look at me now!

Hold on, facts are facts
Just relax, lay low
All right, the panic recedes:
Nobody needs to know

Put on my armor
I'm off to Ohio
Back into battle till
I don't know when
Swearing to her that I was
Never with you
And praying I"ll hold you again

Hold on, clip these wings -
Things get out of hand
All right, it's over, it's done
No one will understand
No one will understand...

We build a treehouse
I keep it from shaking
Little more glue every time that it breaks
Perfectly balanced
And then I start making
Conscious, deliberate mistakes

All that I ask for
Is one little corner
One private room
At the back of my heart
Tell her I found one
She sends out battalions
To claim it and blow it apart

I grip and she grips
And faster we're sliding
Sliding and spilling
And what can I do?
Come back to bed, kid
Take me inside you
I pormise I won't lie to you

Hold on, don't cry yet
I won't let you go
All right - the panic recedes
All right - everyone bleeds
All right - I get what I need
And nobody needs to know
Nobody needs to know

And since I have to be in love with someone
Since I need to be in love with someone
Maybe I could be in love with someone
Like you...

Man....in some ways I dont think I'll ever change. This stuff just really gets me. Hope everyone has fun in college. I know my summer turned out to be amazing

Wow what an interesting few days. Ok so after these guys followed me to Sarah's Grad Party on Saturday, they started calling the diner for me.- Really kinda weird..Hmm....

So something crazy and exciting happened today. A few weeks ago when I had my Grad party, I went to Adams to pick up a sub for the party that day and I asked this hott guy that I saw working there if he could get my sub for me. He was very nice about it and I left and everything was all good. So then today I get a call from Talia who's friend works at Adams saying that this guy that helped me had been going on about how beautiful he thought I was for the past few weeks and wants my number. How incredibly flattering and random and complimentary is that. -That this guy I never met before actually remembered helping me for the 5 seconds I was there on that Saturday. Well, it certainly made my day. I hope he calls. Cuz he was really cute and really nice

Izod and I talked today! I missed you!!!! We need to get together.Im working at the diner this sat and sunday during the day and mon and wed nights. Its fun. I actually liike waitressing for the most part. I like the whole idea of it. The people are soooo nice there too. I couldnt ask for better co-workers. And most of the customers are very nice as well. This one regular that sits at the bar keeps telling me in front of everyone that I am the most gorgeous thing he's ever seen work there. Lol yea right but still its nice b/c he comes in all the time so whenever Im feeling down he always makes me smile with his antics. Besides that, the rest of the staff is so supportive, always asking me how Im doing and if I need any help. It's great. I love it. My feet hurt, but I love it.

Saw Spidey 2...I loved that as well. What an ending. Yey for all us hopeless romantics! 

Six Flags Fridayyyy!! Yeyy! So excited. O and I have VIP tickets to the Mad Hatter and I wanna go Thursday night. Who wants to come partayy with me!!!??!! Tired now. Leave it

Catch y'all on the flipside

So yea....everyone seems to be changing on me, trying new things, partying, and doing things and I feel very left out. It's weird and sad at the same time. Thank goodness I still have my girls though, you guys are priceless to me. Like Erica who is the bestest and came all the way to poughkeepsie to pick me up from the train station today...yea thats right, i heart you, lol. But I just feel sad...which is funny cuz I just had a conversation today about people drifting apart and how I couldnt do anything about it....but it still sucks. Im trying not to dwell on that though.I promise

So we met...finally

Im all thought out for the day. Peace out all...Come visit me out the Eveready Diner! You know you want to! Im working tomorrow niiight

ttyl